My new friend...... My Cane.

It has been a long time since i have written on my blog.
 I am now sitting outside in my garden and of course out of the sun and in the shade. I have moved since then to a beautiful house and enjoying the nature surrounding me and my own pool.
 Things have changed since Covid and i am sure for everyone in a different way. For me it has changed for the positive.

 Another thing that has changed is my new friend, my cane. I have not given it a name yet but maybe in the future.
 This friend of mine came unexpected. I was feeling unstable for a while but never considered about a cane until i went for a bush walk with my husband and used a hiking stick. This turned out to be a bit of a success as i felt more stable and it made my walk seem a bit easier. Now i have to confess i don't always feel the unsteadiness when i walk. I have days where i have no problems, but also days where fatigue sets in and i feel more out of balance.
 To my surprise i saw Selma Blair..... yes i have her on Instagram who has MS as most of you will probably know. She was posing and had her cane pictured.This got me thinking, maybe this is not a bad idea. It was firstly my husband who got me thinking about a cane and Selma just added to that mix.

 So i bought my first cane on Amazon. I felt a bit weird buying my first cane but figured it was time.
 It got delivered and all packed in a box that looked like the shape of a stick. I knew instantly it was my cane. To my surprise i picked it up and while my husband was standing next to me, i put it away in my wardrobe and mumbled its probably hair products. This package then stayed in my wardrobe for a good week. I didn't tell anyone about my purchase.


 The way i was acting was as if i had purchased something very illegal . This "thing"that i had hidden in my wardrobe lasted two weeks. The time came to open the package and look at it. I opened it up and there was my friend, in beautiful flowers all over the cane. Not a bad looking cane i must say.


 One day my husband said " use the hiking cane" for our walks. Right this was a perfect time to tell him about my friend. "wait i said i will explain later". Later became a few days later, but i did finally tell my husband. His response was pretty casual and said "whats the problem" along those lines. He was very supportive as always.

 Now that i got used to having the cane i now needed to use it. It was not so simple as it looks. I ended up using it the wrong way and feeling embarrassed . From invisible to being visible felt pretty strange. With some help on my MS groups and watching a video i can now use it correctly although still learning.


 There is a feeling of embarrassment for me when using a cane but i am sure with time this will pass. At the end of the day this friend will help me when i am feeling unsteady and in need of some support. After all i have MS so no shame.

 Do any of you have any tips for using your cane (if you use one)?

All the best,
Mascha :)